This is the first league game that I actually achieved something notable. I scored my first goal in the league, through a penalty. Before this, everything good that I do has mostly gone unspoken and ignored by the people who matter. Even today, no one mentions or encourages me for making nice passes, though I think that I made a few. It makes me wonder if they are really nice passes or am I just thinking too highly of myself. Which could well be the case. Week in week out, my contribution is ignored, only during a certain game where the players kept shooting into me, making me appear like I blocked alot, then the coach mentioned that I blocked 'like a million shots'. Yep, but someone who blocked a million shots still doesn't deserve his player of the match status.

I enjoy floorball, enjoy playing fun and games, enjoy the company and friendship it has brought me. But I am deeply disappointed with the coaches. Disappointed with the trainings which ignore basic drills like making direct shots and deprive us of simple game time like 3v3 or 4v4. Disappointed with the way the coach doesn't trust me, and their negativity.

My teammates and friends has been supportive, which helps me to carry on.

Perhaps that is my fate. I have to toil like fuck, sweat like shit, achieve something huge, then people will start to even appreciate me. For now, it is still CRAP. They don't mention anything good I do each week, only the bad. Fuck you man.

Back to the game, I know I didn't shoot on target today, and I am disappointed with myself, of course. I noticed in fng a few days ago that I didn't look up before I shoot. I took note, but alas I couldn't change that soon. I BLAME training, because training doesn't have adequate shooting practice, that is a bloody fact. How else am I supposed to train my shooting at the goal besides training time? Court time outside training is not so easy to acquire and people are not so free.. We need more shooting practice in training, damnit. All I can do now is to continue to take note of this fault of mine and hone it in the limited practices we have.

I had many chances to shoot today, some through good control and dribbling, which I give myself a pat on the back for. But my shots are so off that I am embarrassed by it. I will have to compose myself better and look first next time.

Make the best of the situation!

And I applaud myself for having the courage and calm to take the penalty too. To the coaches apparently this is nothing. Nevermind, forget about them, I still have myself, and my teammates.