I gotta say thanks to wy aka feiyong, who stayed over in my room for the past 2 nights. I know its just a coincidence cos she needs to stay over cos of lesson and training, but its really the right time, cos I was feeling very troubled the past few days. But I was lucky to have her to share it with, and even though she laugh and laugh at me, I think my troubles are a little laughed away already :p Yes, the troubles are still there, but sharing it has already taken a load off me. I don't want to worry so much about it, I will get over some things, I will have new things, and whatever type of things come my way, I don't mind. Lol cryptic!

Thank you feiyong!

I experienced a first during the friendly match with ITE today. I scored my first goal for NTU, my first goal wearing the #20 NTU jersey :) It means so much more to me now. And it is also the first time I remember partnering soak, and it was good too. I feel so much more liberated playing as a forward. Everytime she gets the ball down the boards, I will chionggg with all my might down the centre to get a pass or rebound. Though wasn't lucky enough to get the right angle for rebound, it was still a good feeling to be able to chiong down the court, instead of being trapped as a defender. I really really hope the coaches let me play as forward in the real league games.

I also made some interceptions today, resulting in verrry good feelings, haha! I can't really remember what goes on on court (some people cannot stand this about me), but I think my goal was scored when I latched on to a stray pass somewhere outside the D? I was lucky enough not to have someone quick on me so took my preferred shot now but a slow shot - drag shot. And Soak was probably screening the goalie, that's why it went in? Haha thank you if it was the case!

It's really the FIRST goal. Which gives me the excuse to harp on about it :p Didn't score any while playing for league 06/07, didn't play IVP, didn't score in friendlies before this. Really happy :D

About the game, heh, we didn't keep track of the score. But it should be close to 20-3. They had good players plus a few national players, and we already did our best against them. But lessons to be learnt, from a personal point of view?

My general philosophy is

1. Composure - lessen nervousness and things can go to plan more
2. Control - keep my temper and emotions in check when things are unfair/painful
3. Communication - keep talking to your teammates about who you are marking, ask for passes

I did 2 and 3 better today. But I am clearly lacking composure even in friendly games.

-The first shot I tried during the game was so clouded by nerves that it looked more like a weak, stray pass.

- I forgot to use my body to shield the ball, letting people hit it away from in front of me

- I misdribbled into opponents blindly and couldn't control the ball at times when pressured

In general, forgetting the basics which I should know. So, yes, must keep my calm and my brains!

But I did control my temper better today. I kept my cool though an opponent ZAMmed my ankle again today. Lol.. dunno why they love it so much. And I didn't get discouraged so easily when I lost the ball on court, instead focusing on doing what needs to be done ahead.

And I gotta applaud Rai for communicating well with me on court :) She told me to get back up when I drifted too far down. Good communication, really. And she did make some nice passes down the board to me, passing only when it was appropriate. Good one!