Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Been having headaches for the past two days probably due to prolonged exposure to the sun. I normally never get this. It worries me how stressed and fearful and sad I am. The thing is, I really care but they never seem to believe it. I would have sacrificed just that bit and showed myself, if only I felt an instinct of a tiny tinge of compassion. But no I didn't. To them I'm just a piece of shit on the ground that has the authority somehow to dish out instructions. If the piece of shit tells you it's not feeling well, all the more it will get stepped on, kicked around and laughed at. You destroy my soul. My intention was to go ahead cos I didn't want to miss out and be delayed, but the thought of the torture and the unappreciation and being taken advantage of... I didn't. I am destroyed. I am living in a constant state of sadness and ineptness.
I went off @
8:09 AM