Something dirty must have found its way into my stomach again. Pain and mild diarrhoea yesterday, and persisting nausea today. I didn't really notice that I tend to get stomach pains often until someone pointed it out to me. Already know that I easily get gastric and acid reflux, the whole stomach issue is quite worrying. Western medicine can't produce a cure, only remedies for its symptoms, looks like I've to look to chinese medicine for some help. First piece of advice I got was to stop eating spicy food, which is already super tough! Argh. But I better have some discipline before something bad really happens. Less chilli please. Oh on a sidenote no garlic chilli when meeting people cos it'll make the mouth stink hahaha.

Rather saddd that Germany lost to Spain in the world cup yesterday. I started out liking both these sides but Spain have been under fire and the attractive Germans have stolen my heart. Though the statistics still show that Spain have the better players and chances, sometimes hard facts don't attract you, results do. So I ended up rooting for the Germans, who were ultimately too afraid of the opposition, played too defensive and lost to a single goal from a corner. Though technically inferior, I wish they took abit more risk, hmph. Still, hoping they put up another strong fight for 3rd place!

Wonder how our feelings can become so attached to these sports teams we support. How the outcomes that have no real bearings on our lives (betting aside) can alter our moods so much. Perhaps we admire some players and teams so much that we feel sad and wasted when they lose. Perhaps we just don't like to be 'wrong' and simply want our choice team to win.

During the last training I felt super sian cos my line let in goal after goal against our own teammates. Though it wasn't directly my fault, I felt I could have done better, and just hated the feeling of being in the losing team. I have become a sore loser. Goodness. And I am ashamed of myself. Must remind myself to stop this arrogance and humbly continue working to improve. I must learn to lose all over again.

Training today was much better. Somehow the change in position from defender to playmaker returned a little form back to me. Felt the line worked pretty well together and could link up with all of them.

Have a very irritating thigh and butt strain again though. Hate it. Must really be more careful with the warm up, jog slowly first before running, make light passes before throwing my weight down. Speaking of which, I need to lose weight, maybe all that heavy weight is causing strain to the muscles. Ok it most likely is. Haha. Now there is a concrete reason.

It's 3am and my previously acceptable body clock is now haywire again. Oh well the world cup only happens once every four years.