Here's my simplified breakdown of the hierarchy of needs thing:

safety
shelter
sustenance
sex
family
friendship
intimate relationship
intellectual stimulation
self-improvement

It's an attempt to figure out what the hell is wrong with my life. My friend called it 'hall depression'. She said she had been through the same symptoms as me when she was still living in hall back in year two. She was disinterested in school, holed up in the tiny room all day, tired of seeing the same people all day (half of which she didn't like), alone, friendless and stuck on the computer all day. Safety and sustenance we can meet, sex, family, friendship and intimate relationships are letdowns, leading to a lack of motivation in intellectual stimulation. Yet the mind is too hung up on self-improvement. But without fulfilling the many layers before that how can that end be achieved? It only leads to further depression. You see I needed a theory to explain my failure behavior, the cooping up inside all day, the refusal to do proper work, the very very scary looking forward to eating everyday, and the overeating of junk food everyday. It's literally like eating food is the only thing that makes me happy. The only thing that can please my soul. So we decided that I need to go out more often, go out with friends I really like. It sure looks like friendship is easier to work on than family and intimate relationships. So I'm going out to cut hair and shop in the afternoon and hit the town tomorrow night. I still have no intention and no idea of how to motivate my neurons to work on my assignments, but perhaps if I just tried to make myself a little happier, get out a bit, it would work out. Eventually. I should calm down cos no matter what I will rush stuff out in the end. Or else I wouldn't be able to graduate. And I want to.