fresh hurt dug up from years ago
the reality of my pathetic existence
The exact same situation can be funny, acceptable, or downright offensive depending on mood. Sometimes, when emotions are messed up, I just get so angry and sad at things out of my control. I miss sitting where I could see the sparkling south china sea from far, the sky, the trees, the muffled traffic of the ecp. I had my time, didn't I, when life was a rainbow and I jumped from colour to colour savouring all I could. Had I known the good times would end.
Not as focused as I want to be. I really really want this. It's my duty to them, to myself. Come what may, whatever other problems and inadequacies there are, they don't exist till late tomorrow night.
I went off @
10:06 AM
Thursday, January 21, 2010