There are times when you see it coming, and you know it doesn't matter, but that doesn't stop it from smashing into your windscreen and splaying it with blood.
The blood marred my day a little, I just couldn't help it. I'm hurt by what has happened and I don't understand why it has. Not only sad at the extent of it but the changes in it. I'm also hurt on your behalf.
Striving to wipe the unimportant bits off my emotional map. It takes time, and I consider it impossible to not be affected at all. I'll be sad at the rottenness for a while, but I know what's good and worth it and I'll appreciate them.
This is a world of convenience.
This is a world of face-giving.
Those were sweeping statements.
When things happen outside of those boundaries, you know the people involved are the ones worth your love, care and time.
Every little message, little showing up, little wellwish is a moment taken and a piece of a heart. Sometimes.
I went off @
2:04 PM
Friday, October 2, 2009