Somehow the topic of studies and careers has surfaced in conversations more than once today. The feelings of unease and regret have been bubbling and flowing through me, threatening to culminate in a pit of self-blame.

Thank goodness there was a form of awakening today, a drive to explore the world and find out what I'm good at (well there has to be something!) instead of following the candied path. I'm just troubled cos I don't know what it is I'm good at right now. That's why life is a journey isn't it, I should go out there and throw myself into the fray and find out. There were a few options which I would seemingly excel at, that I could have held on to in the past, but I did not. That's why there still resides some feelings of regret and blame.

But well as I always hear, everything happens for a reason and I wouldn't be the person I am today if not for the path I took. And I rather like the person I am today, haha! Sometimes, I also think that certain failures and missed chances teach you, render you stronger. Though I missed the super lucrative boat on several occasions and ignored my potential screaming to get out so many times... There's still the chance for me to find the alternatives, things that I could do well at and enjoy just as much.

And perhaps we should look to other avenues in life for 'value and meaning' , perhaps we should just keep the job for intellectual and monetary meaning. haha. It's late and I don't know how else to put this.

When you talk to someone with similar worries and experiences to yours, you tend to dish out the same advice that you should be espousing all along. And it's a good thing.

it's too late to regret but never too late to restrategize