I have a mortal fear of moths, huge moths. It seems that there has always been people around me to depend on everytime I meet one. This time, I was truly, absolutely alone. It's so bewildering how I can be so afraid of animals, how weak and shaken I become. How I tremble and break out in cold sweat.

I had to wait outside my room for half an hour thinking of what to do, hoping but not believing that it had left my room. Yes it really didn't leave my room even with the door wide open. I had to use slippers and a pole to kill it. It's so garishly horrid to need to kill something, and I hated every moment of it. Goosebumps and shivers throughout :/ But I had to do it or I would never have risked sleeping in my room. Walking over to cheryl's room, knocking on meiyin's room till she woke up, or sleeping in the tv lounge... I would have readily done any of those instead of sleeping in my room without the knowledge that the moth was gone.

That's how afraid I am and I hate that helplessness...

as i stood there alone and invited those tears
they told me they had been waiting