My days on this landing... are numbered...

Was browsing through photos just now and saw my photos from one to two years ago. When I was a few kgs lighter, give or take some weight for muscle. The gained fat on the face and legs are so noticeable, and how I want to at least look like that again. That is why I felt that a major clean-up for my life was in order. Mostly of studies, fitness and general emotional well-being.

Caught up in reminiscing, I started to read my blog posts from last year. I saw how sad and affected I was during a period of time, due to events that were just not worth it. I stand by my stance that I could not have controlled some things. But I hope that this time, I can be more prudent. Another bout of crazy depression eating, and I'll not be fit enough to even lift my floorball stick.

Floorball is taking over my life, ruling it, rewarding it. I'm starting to enjoy it more and more, and with the influx of new interesting people into ivp, I am super uber enthusiastic and happy to go for trainings :) haha! From my reading of last year's blog posts, I also saw that I was very much more inconfident last year. Though my composure is still not at a peak, it is definitely improving :)

I feel I've had pretty good floorballing luck in recent weeks. Scoring in games in training and two in ivp friendly even though those were fluffed shots. Played my first game in a more defending position for the first time in many months yesterday. And even though I know I was nervous and inexperienced in the workings of the position, it was a rather good start and I know I can go UP! Am learning more and more to acknowledge the bad but give myself the credit for the good.

My intense passion to improve my game is prompting me to lose weight and improve my stamina. Cos personally, tiredness leads to lost of composure and soft voice and many other obvious deficiencies in my game. Which leads me back to the BIG CLEANUP.

I want to look like I did before, and also improve my game!!!

The silence and slight chill of this place soothes my soul... I love to think here...