I wish I could sit quietly in the stands, instead of being pointed out. It is painful and embarrassing. Why can't they let me live out the pain instead of amplifying it? Do they enjoy themselves causing pain to others...
Maybe some don't realise the damage they are doing. Cos they haven't asked me certain questions that I have unthinkable answers to. Only one or two people know the truth of why I am so especially vulnerable to some issues.
If they knew, they wouldn't think its funny to make fun of me, to bug me...
There is only so much I can help myself... I try so hard, yet they tear down at my efforts with little pokes into my skin...
I went off @
12:31 AM
Monday, September 14, 2009