if you want to experience hell at home
come to my house and be me for one day
pushing me further and further out
destroying each little chance
one by one
Even if i work in a sad, cold and lonely place overseas, at least I know I chose it. But here and now, I have no choice but to come home to this home every day. How much can I escape? Escape for 2 hours and the scoldings meant for those 2 hours are heaped onto me when I come back. There is no escape but permanent escape. I'm not claiming to be free of fault, but I cannot ever admit that my fault is greater. I can't take this. I want to escape to another world, so much, but I can't bear the thought of leaving my mum behind.
I went off @
6:45 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009