I swear it's pms. Blame it on pms.

I've been horrendously irritable these few days I'm so ashamed of myself. I roll my eyes and get pissed off when I hear how irritatingly some people speak, I scolded fark so many times in storm training yesterday cos I couldn't shoot up to standard, I suddenly felt emotional and sad, I feel disappointed and resigned about some things, I insulted how people do things and am ridiculously demanding. It's almost like I've become a different person who's so darn unpleasant. What else can I blame it on besides pms? I really do not think I am this mean and irritable normally. But the doubts are there and it's scaring me how awful I can be.

Not only are my emotions addled, my body is being made a fool out of too. When I walked down to the bus stop yesterday morning, my whole body just ached in a way that made me want to cry. It wasn't normal muscle aches, it was a weird feeling of weakness and helplessness emanating from my stomach. And I've been unnaturally cold in the buses and MRTs it's excrutiating. I wondered why I haven't been my usual self in tempest training and fng, and now I know, blame it on pms. I lost 50-50s (weeps) and had an effective energy limit of like 30 seconds in games and I walked on court most of the time in fng. Andddd pms makes my back hurt. And I stupidly went to chiong and practise shots last night, aggravating the backache. The forceful practising also strained my right butt and thigh muscles! It's like a lesser version of a stroke, a foolishly self-attained one at that.

This post is also to remind myself not to practise too hard when I'm already tired and at the mercy of pms. I know I'm too playful to listen to my own advice most of the time, so well, at least stretch well before and after the exertion!