Goodbye seemed real for the first time last night.

It was the first time I didn't go for storm training and the late night supper with the girls. Quietly melancholic, that was how I felt. Frankly, I expected worse, but my predictions about how I would feel and the steeling and cementing of my emotions worked. I knew I would feel lonely, I knew I would feel yearning, I knew I would feel empty. So I prepared myself and reminded myself this is worth it, this is what I want.

And the niceness of the tempest girls (like all NTU floorballers are) also made it easier for me to settle in. It wasn't very awkward for me to train and play with them cos I have crashed trainings and even games before, so they at least know my name and face, know what position I play in. We had a friendly last night, against LMFC. The score wasn't very flattering, lol, it was almost ten goals to nothing. As a whole we're unprepared and rusty, but I'm hopeful. And I think I did well for my first official friendly. Remember making a few nice passes and had a few shots (albeit off target URGH), intercepted a few balls and made a few breakthroughs. I am rather happy playing with them and hope to correct my stupid habits asap so they will be happy playing with me too. lol.

Anyway I'm dozing off in office again, that's why I'm not doing proper work. I slept at 1 plus last night and apparently 5 hours is far from enough too. After two cups of tea and countless trips to the loo cos of its strong diuretic effect, I am still. nodding. off.

On a brighter note, we had a chinese new year lunch today and the food was tok kong! The yusheng was top-notch, tofu silky and eggy and fragrant, scallop (though I only had one smal piece) was juicy and springy and sweeeet, tomyam fish succulent and shiok, frog legs also succulent and shiok. As you can see I'm running out of goodfood adjectives =p But but but I missed out on my favourite desert, orh nee (yam paste) cos the staff said we would have to wait 10 minutes for it and my colleagues had to come back for a meeting. Wasted! I want to eat orh nee! Anyway I found the name of the restaurant rather cute - Por Kee. Porkee. Porkey. Porky! Hahaha..

After lunch we went to buy 4D and toto. The whole office shared one 4D ticket for fun, and I got roped into buying a 4 toto tickets, haha. And now the office auntie is making me LOL again, she's just really cute/funny . She suddenly started talking to herself: 'aiyo, very tired ah.' Then when no one answered her she went on: 'veron ni hui bu hui tired?' So I humored her and said: 'yeahhh I think we ate too much just now, haha.' Yep and she was humored, cos she gave a girly laugh and said: 'haha later on the bus I can sleep already. You know I also like to sleep on the bus leh.' This is just so HER.

Everyday she says random stuff and yesterday's was also classic. This is how it went...

Suddenly, she rose up from her cubicle and turned to me, saying: 'I like to eat this kind of oranges leh. I don't like to eat the other kind, the other kind not nice one.' And I am primed to give automatic answers to stuff like these and I said: 'oh, what kind is it that you like?'

Omg, kill me, it's not like I want to know, but I always humor her and end up having to endure more random information and nod my head and 'orhh' somemore. Haha, but I'm learning from my colleagues and will sometimes just do the 'oh, okay' or the mirthless laughter.

Okay, time for another skip to the loo.